Daydream

Sometimes, I find my mind wandering, thinking
longing thoughts of you.

Night arrives, dawn arises
you are always there, creeping in my dreams.

I am wandering, I dream all night long
sweet and loving thoughts because of you.

When I wake up every sunshine morning, I am still alone.
Alone with daydream of you as before.

Cold

This poem is dedicated to my dear friend, who I promised write a poem to him once before. Wish him can find his true love soon.

xxx xxx xxx

This world is so cold
let the pain lingers in my heart, mind and soul.

I have loved, lost and lived,
How do I trust to love again for all in my past?

I cry a silent tear , never going to dry up
In the empty room, as alone makes me shudder.

I am waiting everynite about my dream comes true
I wonder, but it would not be true, I trumble.

When I wake up from the nite, silent night, my soul cleanse me of smile
the memory entwined forever in a hopeless wish.

That is the fate, fate of past
But I am willing to wait.

Sometimes

Sometimes I wonder,
when I smell the smell of you
I start thinking of you
holding my hand, dancing in my small dream.

Sometime I wonder,
when the flowers blossom on a mountainside
I start thinking of your
glission smile, hugging my happiness.

Sometime I wonder,
when I dream the dream of you
I start thinking you
because of the distance, separate our yearning.

Pernah

就在自己的英文诗被发现的时候，让我回想起以前写过的三语三部曲。

近来自己的部落都是诗，好像回到从前一样，以诗为出发点。贴多了诗，看来看去，还不是一样，没有创意，自己也烦躁起来。

但忙碌的生活，让自己失去了思索的空间，只好先以写过的诗和博友们分享。就应SK的要求，我尝试在档案中寻找写过的马来诗，来吓你一下。

Pertama kali aku menampak wajahmu
hatiku bagai mimpi, gema bergelombang dari Sang Abadi.
Ketika aku mendengar suaramu selembut kain sutera
hatiku bagai telaga kaca kala senja.
Perasaan itu seperti kita pernah bertemu sebelumnya
sejak dahulu kala, berjuta-juta tahun lamanya kita bercinta.

Spring Memories

朋友来msn，给我看一首诗，问我是谁写的。我读了一遍又一遍，是曾相识过。我回答他，不知道。

“再想一想啦！”

“我真的不知道作者是何人。这种的写作方式有点像我，句句断层，又像似可以连接。有点凄凉，又有点爱恋，只能说凄美。” 我一边地分析，一边地说。

结束了上句话，后来我加了这句。“但在记忆里，我好像没有写过类似的诗哦”

“Are you sure?”朋友再追问。

“我没有对诗的记忆。我真的不知道啦！难道你认识作者？”

“我就认识他。而且很要好呢！”

我不回复，彼此沉静了几分钟。

“作者是你啦！”。我terkejut一下。我写的？怎么我都不记起来？

我问他从何处得到我的英文诗？后来我恍然大悟。

以前在大学时期写过很多英文诗句，但从来没有和任何人分享过，偶尔会在一些网路上张贴分享。写过的诗，我本身不背，也不是什么大作，也不会动神泣鬼。这样渐渐地把它们给忘了。

也曾经我的档案无端端地中了病毒，也从此消失在我的眼前。自从有了部落阁这个玩意儿，我又开始张贴。

xxx xxx xxx

曾几何时写过的英文诗，今日再回味，又是一番滋味在心头。回首一望，原来我在方年的青春记事本里留下了一句句浪漫的诗句，弥补了空白的疯狂。

再读一遍，我笑了起来，为那年的稚气填涂了几分成熟感。

和大家分享一首，为《Spring Memories》

The grass of KK is growing green and long,
While in there the leafy mulberry branches hang low.
Even now while my longing heart is breathing,
Are you thinking, oh my dear，
of coming back to me?

Love

I asked, how much you give me your love?
You said, as much as you want.

I asked, how can you touch my heart?
You answered, as long as that's true heart.

I asked, how can you hold my hand?
You replied, use your gentle hands, hold my soul.

You asked me, do u love me?
I replied, How can I not love you?

Without other reasons,
with simple words-love.
That's the simplest answer.

My belief

People asks me how I love you
I tell them I don’t know.
I guess they understand.
My life began again since
the day you took my hand,
My life was not lonely anymore
Because your thought are just for me.
Your shadows always follow me,
daytime and night
won’t let me feel lonely
keep me warm
even though I alone.
Why I love you?
Because you love me,
as I love you too.
That is my belief.

28 from 27

I am still thinking about
the step over 28 from 27.

Long journey still ahead,
the sky full of shining sparkling stars
covered the lonely way I want to walk
wish I could get your hands together.

This is a beautiful challenging road
full of seductions and unknowns,
countless promises and crazy dreams left behind.

How can I walk through my 27 with loneness?
Yesterday story was
giving me a brave to step forward.

28? Mean what?
Just a number, initial mark of my day.

xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx

This poem is dedicated to my friend, Joddy. Wish you Happy Birthday.

Love

Since I came
Why should I leave again?

Leave because to forget.
Leave because to escape.
Leave because I love you.

Love you doesn't mean have to be together.
Love you doesn't mean to get your love return,
is because
I have ever owned
your love before.

I left again,
left with the younger heart
as well as my love
to your love
forever.

Fall in Love

I do not know you well
but my heart is enchanted
like a sweet song,
sung from far away
into my lonely world.

I can not control myself,
seeing you furtively
in my tiny heart.
Then, I smile.

I carry my heart
by a simple arrow
sped by a bow
vanquished my soul.

I fear to tell you
my deepest secret.
they will say, in 'skirmish'!
as i fall in love
to
you
.

Cintai

Burung jelatik terbang melayang
singgah sebentar di pohon jambi.
Hati rinduku bukan sebarang,
wajahmu selalu dimimpi-mimpi.

Di mana merbuk melayang
di sanalah ada sakti.
Di mana datangnya sayang?
di sanalah sampai ke hati.

Walapun gunung tinggi dilitupi awan
langit berteduh gelap dan beradu.
Bila sayang mengirim pesan,
hancur seluruh hati aku.

Ikan duyung hulu berenang
burung merbok membuat sarang
Makan tak enak, tidur tak tenang
hanya hatiku teringat kamu seorang.

Bunga kasih dalam tangan ku.
biji rinduan simpan dalam hati.
Adakah tuan juga menemui ku？
akan hati cinta sejati.

Cuba-cuba menanam mumbang
moga-moga tumbuh kelapa
Cuba-cuba menanam sayang
Moga-moga menjadi cinta.

xxx xxx xxx

这是一首马来诗称为pantun。是我第一次尝试写的；Cintai,爱的意思。愿大家被满满的爱紧紧地包围。

Vein

When my heart has been occurred a line of the vein,
full of the shining crystal of white quartz?

If the clear water can flow into my heart,
I am willing to purify your coolness heart.

If the flowing of water can accept the sadness,
I am willing to flow by the water,
to somewhere you wish.

When day has turn to the dark colour,
neon light sparkling in the raining night without stopping.
My heart is still waiting,
waiting for you,
coming back.

In fact, that is just a fantastic dream.
I realized, and stuck in the mid night.
The reddish blood is flowing out,
contaminated the white crystal
to become the rose quartz
in the vein of my heart.

20/3/08

Yard

I am a yard,
from your dictionary
made up of two nervous bodies,
the channel, giggleberries, skin, and foreskin.

I got a very cute scrotum with two little testicles
to protect and store my tiny worms.

My body full of corpus spongiosum
the root of my body
the sacred of the soul.
Baby, don't touch it
it is the power of holy
source of desire.

Opppsss, I am the boss
hiding in the shadow area
shy to meet you
except in the dream of seduction.

Hello, what is your name, Mr. cute?
Oppsss...
excuse me, I thought I am quite famous.
I humble to reply,
My name is Penis.

Do not simply play in the yard.

Lost You

The time was coming so near,
Memory goes back.
Tears still falling,
Melting a path to my heart
Today I still recall.

I couldn’t catch my breath
Heart is aching,
I am wondering why everything is taken

How many days now have passed me by?
I tremble.

How long my heart has died on the sunset,
like there is no light anymore on the next day.

Watching the time tuck you in my memories
Yelling for you with no reply
From my cliff of sorrow.

I fall.
No need your love to continue living.

I will be entering to the place where
I saw the beautiful sunset while
On the road we passed through.

Remembered you in my heart.
That is becoming a story,
yesterdays story without
shining.

12.03 26/8/7
(This poem is dedicated to who i had ever missed before)

Biar Tangis

Ada apa dengan hati?
Sama dengan apa yang berlaku selama ini.

Hati dah hilang dalam kesesakan fikiran.
Fikiran ataupun rinduan?

Kenapa tidak biarnya pergi selama-lamanya?
kenapa tidak?
kenapa tidak?
Tiada orang mempunyai jawapannya.

Hati sudah hilang, hilang di sempadan samudera....
Apa yang masih boleh dikenangi?

Biarlah pergi,tanpa rinduan
Biarlah pergi, hati yang sejiwa
Biarlah pergi dengan segala-galanya.....

Hati yang sudah lama diketepikan,
segala-gala rasa dalam hati sudah tersejat dalam udara yang basah
penuh dengan rinduan,
menangis

Fantastic Dream

Am I falling in love with you?

Isn’t that feeling back again?

Doesn’t passion stimulate and
spread in my lonely heart?

Ah!
That is just an imagination.

Heart, jumping.
Jumping faster and faster.
Faster until I am unable
to suppress myself.

I blush,
I am coming,
going inside my dream,
fantastic dream.

Distance

I miss you
But I couldn’t tell you.

The only way I can do,
stand here
to see you, without
touching and greeting.

No matter how I feel,
I understand,
I have to keep a void distance
among us.
I couldn’t stand inside the land
Of your love

I wave my both hands to you
then I turn myself, to leave
cruel facts on realistic life,
to chase my true love.
16.13 8/5

Forgettable Memories

I sit beside window,
watching the same scene everyday.

My heart is counting the coming
day. I forgot when are pixels of pictures started
falling down on the ground
one by ones,
day by days?
All of my memories own to you
are started hesitated and
slurred.



I am still anticipating
to leave.
But it is a fate,
to let me go.

This land is not belonging
to me since
I stand here until
I am going to leave soon.

I lugubrious without tears
because I forgot
the sound of skit of
you on yesterday story.
20.14 3/4/7

Missing Heart

近来这几天终是想念一位久违的朋友。许久没见他了，思念的心开始叠在心胸。也许我们俩各忙各的，有一段日子没有联系。我也不敢冒然地送短讯骚扰他。

昨晚,我发送了一则电邮给他问好。一开始就写，我很想念你，所以无意给你送来问候。今天他回我：“很开心有你的问候。几时有空来喝茶？”我顿然觉得自作践，很冒昧地去想念一个人。我没有渴求什么，只是一句安慰我的话就会让我满足。始终他没有对我说。我的心此时在停顿了几秒，关上自己的电邮，不再思念。

这首诗，是前几天想念他的时候纪录下来。


How long we never meet up?
That is quite long long time ago.
Am I still missing you?
I confuse.

I know, that is good for us to keep a distance.
The worst thing, I couldn’t forget there are your numbers
inside my hand phone.

How long we never call each other?
Since u went back on the fallen night.



I tried to delete all memories I own to u.
Today I found, I am failure.
All of my secrets turn into words,
explore my naked soul.

I ask myself again,
am I really missing you?
I will leave here and
forget you soon.

I know, I will be leaving nothing, but
my words to you,
Yap, I am missing you now,
forgetting you soon.
15.12 5/3/07

(picture taken from AnneKarin Glass * Visual Art)

Knew

I know, I am not missing you anymore.
Just like a balloon, releases away
from my skinny hand
to the blue blue sky
without tied, flies with freedom.

I should be happy
because all of my troubles seem so far away from
me. Like a balloon flies over insane…

I knew, it will be fallen down to the ground,
Whatever how high it tries to be.

I give up.
Leave off all of my desires.
Melt away my sadnesses.

18.04 9/1/7